If At First…

Trial and error.
That’s what they say.
Neither of those,
however,
sound like positive
things to me.

You win some,
You lose some.
Now there’s a phrase
that has a sense of balance.
That’s something
I can get behind.

Not this nonsense
about trying
and fucking up.

Although, that is
a far more realistic
approach to life.

And people call me
a pessimist.

Turn It

“Just turn it.
Twist it to the left.
No, turn it harder.”

“I can’t get it to budge.”

Lying on my back
Under a giant vehicle
Was not how I wanted
To spend my afternoon.

But there I was
Listening to the voices
In the death trap above,

Unaware they had just
Run me over.

Iced Ground White

If rain is God’s tears,
Then what is snow?

They say that
Each one of us is unique,
Like a flake of snow
Falling from the sky.
No two are alike
And every one is beautiful
In their very own way.

And then, as we die,
One by one,
We dissolve into the earth
And the process begins again.

But within a year,
Everyone has forgotten
About the snow.

A Plan For Poetry

Something I did to myself many years ago — eleven to be exact — was force myself to write one poem every week. Observational, sometimes absurd, I wrote one per week for an entire year.

So here I am again, with a new blog, a new year, and a new pair of knickers… And what better way to ring in the roaring twenties than with anther year of running out of ideas for poems?

I’ll be posting one new poem per week, unless of course I forget, in which case the following poem will be about how I forgot… I expect it to be an entertaining and occasionally arduous experience for us all.

Amidst all the newly penned thoughts and observations, I will be re-posting all of the older poems I wrote way back when, simply for the sake of moving them to this new blog, and away from the old one, which is relatively inaccessible by now.

So here’s to a lot of absurdity, and I apologize in advance for some of the things I’m likely to write.

Nothing

At long last, I’ve finished my second album.

Okay, maybe a little background information is in order… or not, but I’ll provide it anyways.

About twenty years ago, amidst a bunch of emo, depressing poetry, I wrote lyrics for what I hoped would eventually form its way into a concept album. I had immersed my interests into social psychology, and wrote a narrative story from the perspective of someone getting dumped. Mind you, nothing similar had yet to happen to me, but I placed myself into the mindset and wrote.

I wanted to capture the different stages and phases of mental and emotional states that followed a breakup, from denial and bargaining, through to anger and blame, eventually resulting in acceptance and moving on — although still not fully being “over it.”

Over the next decade or so, I tried to get started giving life to the music in my head that went with each song, but people were busy, moved (including myself), or things just never really got off the ground, so to speak. Eventually, a decade ago, I started messing with synth and digital loop editors, and soundfonts, etc. etc. I created a three-track EP of instrumental music for my own amusement, and at the time to work through my own emotional state after a breakup that was far too similar to the story I had previously written.

Then, about six years ago, I began work on making a full album “just to see if I could.” I made some music, taking poems I had written when younger, and pieced them together into an album called “A Long Night” that was released five years ago. That album had a loose structure concept of vulnerability and the fear that comes with. I call that album a “beta” to this new album. I made it simply to make sure I knew what would be needed to craft this thing that had been festering in my mind for fifteen years.

With that thrown together, I then spent much of the past five years meticulously putting together something that I knew had to be exactly how I heard it in my head. No cutting corners, no good-enoughs; I needed it to translate straight from my mind into audible form… Although, I did set an expectation that some things just wouldn’t work and would end up on the cutting room floor. In the end, I only cut out four tracks and changed two to instrumentals of some sort. Everything else turned out quite accurate, even if relatively unconventional at times.

In all, these two albums and one EP have given me a greater sense to having my own “sound” that feels cohesive to me as being ME. While still exposing who many of my personal influences are in both sound and style, I feel very secure in the sound of my musical pseudonym, Annoyansome.

So, now, without any further rambling… Here’s one of my biggest personal accomplishments:

And just to be complete, with SoundCloud since they don’t have ads: